Still standing, need to lie down
Proactively changing the things you can control can have a positive impact on everyone.
I’m tired. My brain hurts, my eyes feel glazed over. Nothing is wrong, nor is anything bad. I’m good at work. I’m good at home. Things are okay, which I haven’t always been able to say. I could use a nap and a quiet day to myself.
I’m an introvert who isn’t much for talking or socializing. School, training, and meetings have drained my social battery. Moreover, I’ve gained some weight back since my dad passed. I’m probably not getting quality sleep. I don’t think I’m back at a point where I’m snoring, but maybe my airway is a little bit restricted.
Wah, wah, wah.
So much whining with so few real problems. I think these are more statements of fact and a way to begin processing this information. This is about taking proactive measures. Trends are forming and, if they are not addressed, things will head in the wrong direction. Writing this out is the first step in the journey towards resolution.
Depression and anxiety are hard to predict or control. They can take hold without warning — but not always. In time, you can learn some early warning signs. Taking action can help reduce the impact of depression, or you can take steps to change what is within your control.
It’s important to remember you cannot control others. You cannot always even change your environment. There are some things you can control, though, and those must be your focus.
Your mental state weighs heavily on your friends, family, and coworkers. A dour mood at work, a snippy comment to your spouse, or a curt reaction to your neighbor can impact their moods. In turn, those actions can have a ripple effect. Maybe those people end up reacting poorly to others, or turn inwards and fester. They might come to resent you for it.
You owe it to others to proactively take care of yourself when you can. This way, when you really need someone to be there for you, or to be understanding and give you space, they are more likely to do so.