The Last Meritocracy

The Last Meritocracy

I'm Not a Dick; I'm Just Awkward, Anxious, and Scared

An abridged glimpse into a composite scene, told from inside my head

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Marcello De Feo
May 05, 2025
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people sitting on chairs near glass window during daytime
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Shit, I slammed the door. People looked. Should I tell them I’m sorry? No. There are too many people. It’s so loud. It’s okay. I’ll be okay. It’s just dinner with friends. We’re sitting down. It’ll be fine. Wait, they hugged Jane. Why didn’t they hug me? They didn’t even really say hi. She didn’t make eye contact and he …

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